Motivation

My truth: some weeks are better than others.

I find that some weeks I am completely motivated to be the best in school and at work.  Then other weeks I feel as though all of the stuff I am doing is not doing any good.  It baffles me that some days I am so ready to work on homework and learn something new, then for no reason at all it feels like a chore that I an unable to complete.
    Sometimes I am very intent on finding a new job, on that is 'professional' and that will improve my resume, but then I get depressed by my lack of qualifications and abandon my search.
    I don't know why every week is different.  This week I had a paper due, finished it after a lot of complaining, then for my next class couldn't get myself to read the material.  Now I am trying to finish an online midterm that I have had for two weeks and is due on Sunday.  I really have no motivation.  I am also not working much so there is no reason for me to leave the house so I get lazy.  If I do leave the house it is to spend money, which I cannot afford to do working fewer hours and getting less money, so I stay home, yet am unmotivated even though I have nothing better to do.
    NOTHING BETTER TO DO, yet I cannot get myself to put enough effort into the things I have to do.