January 13

My truth . . . I feel best when I am creating something.

Inspirational Quotes

Am I Qualified?

I am about to apply for a prestigious internship, and as I read the requirements I am very nervous that they will laugh at my application because I am young and have almost no experience.  If feels like there is pressure  just filling out an application.  I am somewhat of a perfectionist, and used to being good at what I do, so trying for such an amazing internship is really making me question my abilities.  It would be really cool to get an internship like this, but should I put this much time into something like this when my chances are so low?

I guess there is no harm in trying, but it will take up a lot of my time.  I don't really have a huge amount of other responsibilities, so there is no reason I shouldn't try.

How should I keep my confidence up though?

A 'new year' truth...

... hot glue is the new answer to everything ............. duck tape was so 2010.


I have been being crafty lately.  A little hot glue and scrap material creates many beautiful things.  These little accomplishments I made do console me a little when I am feeling alone.

New Year

I hope this is a good new year.  The truth is that I am feeling not so motivated in life.  I have school, and work, and those are the components of my life right now.  My job is fun most of the time, and I can't imagine ever leaving.  I work with kids and they are so much fun.  I want to stay there to watch them grow up, but there are so many other possibilities that I have, and I am so young that I cannot stay at this dead end job... It kind of breaks my heart.  As far as school it is not what I want to be doing with my life anymore, so there is some serious lack of motivation.  And as I try to find something else I would love more I am not interested in any other types of master's programs, but I don't just want to quit without a solid plan B.

One thing that I want this year is to become more social.  I am quite to home body, and have not really made many friends since leaving undergrad.  It makes me sad sometimes that my life is so small. 

I have decided I will make a big poster that reads: Be Optimistic; in hopes that it will inspire me everyday.

Television

I have obsessions with certain shows.  Some of them suck me in in a way that I cannot verbalize.  I learn to love the characters, I hurt when the characters hurt, I wish the best for them.  There have been episodes that I can feel their pain and sadness. 

My truth: I am so detached from the things that happen around me that I have stronger feeling when I watch television series.

The Family

 The pain...

The goodbye... 

The love that could be...

Election

Everyone knows we had an election last week right? Well on the 2nd I was coming home from school and on the radio an announcer said 'the election results are coming in, but what I really want to know is who will be voted out on dancing with the stars." REALLY??? Is that all she can thing about? something that is incredibly insignificant when we are talking about the fate of a states policy and national government representatives.  I firmly believe that society should take more of an interest in politics because it effects life everyday.  Most people cannot and do not know how much the government affects them.  It's worth  something about politics so that you can make an impact and be heard.

Don't sit around complaining if you are not willing to be involved.

My truth: society needs to take a closer look at its values, and show people that there are more important things than reality TV.

There's this boy....

Well when a story starts like this you know it won't be good.

There is this boy I met in college.  I am in love with him, but he has a girlfriend; one who he pined after for more than a year before she gave him the time of day.  I would be willing to move anywhere in order to be with him.  He has been on my mind a lot lately.  Facebook reminded me of his birthday, and now I can't get him out of my head.  I should say something to him, but I purposely stay away from him so I am not brought down by my unrequited love.  So I am waiting for someone who will never come, and will never see what is in front of his eyes. 

My Truth:  I am wanting a boy who doesn't think of me as a girlfriend, and I am waiting to see if one day that may change.